UNANSWERED PRAYERS
Bonjour Grann,
I spend a lot of time wondering why. Why didn't I listen to Ma mere, when she said, "Stay close, Vicki Lynn, I'll be serving lunch early so we can leave early. Don't make us wait." And I told myself I wasn't hungry that I would be back long before we left.
I brought the pup to the altar, even though the Altar to Dieu is incomplete, and placed her on a flat rock in the center, up front. I didn't know what Dieu was going to do. I didn't even know what I was going to do. But I thought just maybe, just maybe this last crucial pleading, praying, would be answered. And even if we're never rescued, at least Foi would be saved.
I would have Foi.
But nothing could be further from the truth. I'm without faith. I can't move mountains. I can't walk on water. I couldn't save her. I can't even save myself. I can plead, and I can beg, and shout to the heavens, but nothing I do matters to anyone.
Blinded by tears, I stumbled over to the rock quarry from the altar, after burying Foi. I didn't know what I was looking for, if anything. I was following Bijou; but something caught my eye, something I thought was there, near a large crack in a stone, a fissure that doesn't extend to the ground.
Was it a button, a coin?
But it was nothing. However, on the other side of the rock fissure I discovered a path, overgrown over time, and difficult to see, but a trail. It isn't easy to see because the rock fissure is small; but wide enough for me to easily squeeze through to the other side.
