Chapter Two
UNANSWERED PRAYERS
Sun. July 10th
Bonjour Meme,
I spend a lot of time pondering why. Why didn't I stay and listen to ma mere, when she said, "Stay close, Elaine, I'm serving lunch early. Don't make us wait for you." Yet, I told myself I wasn't hungry and I would be back long before dinner time.
I brought the pup to the altar, even though the Altar to God is incomplete, and placed her on a flat rock in the center, up front. I didn't know what God was going to do. I didn’t even know what I was going to do. But I thought just maybe, just maybe this last crucial pleading, praying, would be answered. And even if we're never rescued, at least Fwa would be saved. We would be saved.
But nothing could be further from the truth. I'm without faith. I can't move mountains. I can't walk on water. I couldn't save the sea lion pup. I can't even save myself. I can plead, and I can beg, and shout to the heavens, but nothing I do seems to matter, to anyone.
Now I sit here at the table, once again pondering and not getting any answers; but not expecting any either.
I stumbled over to the rock quarry from the altar, after burying Fwa, blinded by tears; I didn't know what I was looking for, if anything. I was following Me' Loss; but something caught my eye, something I thought was there, on top of a low fissure in the rock, a fissure that doesn't extend to the ground. Was it a button, a coin? But it was nothing.
However, on the other side of the rock fissure I discovered a path, it was difficult to see with the passage of time, but clearly a trail. It isn't visible from the quarry because the rock fissure is small, and doesn't extend to the ground; but its wide enough to easily squeeze through to the other side.
I followed the trail, only a wild animal path, and after struggling though the underbrush for close to five minutes, I ended up at the back wall of a building, built between two rock palisades formed by volcanic rock.
There is no way around the sides of the building or the rock palisades, the only way in is through a heavy door in the side of the wall, closed and deadbolted.
Should I try the key I found, the key that doesn't fit Marvella, marked: Boathouse? But what's on the other side of the wall? Should I try the key I found? What if the door is better left closed and locked?
Meme, I'll wait; and think about it. Sleep well.